Incomparable

There's no feeling like
Being lost
And found
Being blind
Just to see
Being bound
And set free

There's nothing like
Losing hope
To have faith
Being discouraged
To discover grace
Being broken
And made whole again

Jesus
There's none sweeter
Than knowing You
None greater
Than Your love so true
No favour
Than Your mercy that found me

Found me
When I was lost, blind, bound
Out of hope, discouraged, broken
And still finds me, even today
Still finds me, when I lose my way
Finds me, so by You I can stay

Your hand caught me, broke my fall
Your light warmed me, through it all
Dear Jesus, You heard my call

Oh God! My God!

I worship You
You did it all
Bought me with Your blood
When I deserved of it none
Placed my feet on the right path
Even after I scorned Your grace again, O again
How I deserve such love
I cannot begin to comprehend
I love You, Jesus
I love You, Lord

My Love, my Worship, my Lord, my All...

In silence my heart continues to sing
Speechless, Your praises still ring
In continuing awe, I worship Thee

Hushed Hallelujahs shouted out loud into the deafening silence of this night

Selah...

Behind our phones

I hid behind the phone today
Boiled up in anger, spat in rage
Spoke words I couldn't speak in person
Taught that S.O.A.B. a sounding lesson
Did more than blows and slaps deliver
Fired shameful arrows out of my quiver
I hid behind my phone

I hid behind my phone today
Pretended it was fine to have fun and play
Covered the tears that were falling on my screen
Texted jokes and posted bountiful smilies
No one could see the pain churning inside
No one noticed why or even that I had to cry
I hid behind my phone

I hid behind my phone today
Told all the lies so I could get laid
Spoke sweet words of love and heartfelt honour
She couldn't even tell all I wanted was one shocker
Promised her heaven on earth all our days
Meehhnn she was now in my hands, I could have my own way
I hid behind my phone

I hid behind my phone today
Told the world I was in Paris on a french holiday
Shared pictures of my ticket bound to Cape Town next week
Told them I bought this gorgeous set of pearls and dresses sheek
Whilst I sat locked up in my room at Adenta SSNIT flats
I portrayed the life of the Kardashians like I'd been there, done that
I hid behind my phone

I hid behind my phone today
Praying for someone for God to make a way
Preaching and teaching the Word on Facebook
Rebuking the lost who disgraced the Brotherhood
Flipping between that and sakawa sites
Making myself rich not calling it Stealing but Shop Right
I hid behind my phone

You may hide behind your phone today
Or tomorrow, next week, or any other day
Like me you may want something you naturally don't get
Cover up reality just to siphon out the 'best'
But how long can it last till we meet with reality
What do we really gain before God and humanity
If we hide behind our phones??

A Taxi to Sakumono

This morning, I was late to leave home. To catch the company bus from 7am, I need to leave the house at 6:45am to catch a taxi.To do so if I want to walk the full stretch to the bus stop, I have to leave before 6:20am.

Today I left a little after 7am, so I prayed:
"Lord, please let me catch a Sakumono taxi as soon as I get to the junction"
Catching a Sakumono taxi instead of the other taxi means I don't need to cross two roads to get to the bus stop. It also saves me time at the same cost.

Guess what? As soon as I reached the junction, here was a Sakumono taxi signalling to me. Cool, huh? And guess what too? I was the last passenger to make it full. How delightful. I thanked God for answered prayer and sat in the taxi. Then I realised I had no earrings on. At that moment, I knew exactly why I felt like I had left something I couldn't remember when leaving my room. Great!!

Then it occured to me, right before I was about to yield to the temptation of complaining within me, God wanted me to get earrings, not catch the bus. You see, a Sakumono taxi gets me to the Sakumono station where I can get earrings there or at the next station I get to. God tried to hint me I had left something. When that failed, He stopped a taxi for me so I would keep in tune with Him and realise what I actually needed that morning. Not a cheaper ride to work, but a pair of earrings, a new one for that matter... lol!

How many times do we have a plan that God 'thwarts'? Yes, this story isn't a huge deal and I could have survived the day without earrings. However, it comes to show how God is really concerned about every little detail of our lives. How much more the big issues, the frustrating issues, the pressing issues? He is a God Who cares and orders our steps to our benefit without taking from His glory.

He is the God Who ensures I have all in the right place for the right time, His time, even my earrings.

Bless the Lord, O my soul!

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
(Jeremiah 29:11 - NIV)

Unconditional

My God
He loved
And loves me
Unconditionally

He teaches me
To love
And keep loving Him
Unconditionally

A baby born
God man
To redeem the World
To redeem me
With a love
Unconditional

Today, a tough place
An an unescapable place
I raise my hands
In praise
To love Him
Unconditionally

Today's sin before Him
Forgives me
Finds mercy
Blesses me beyond my expectations
With a love
Unconditional

Peer pressure abounds
Superior enticement surrounds
My heart resolute to serve Him
My body beaten by frustrations
My mind tormented by confusions
My will set to please Him
I will, I will obey Him
To love Him
Unconditionally

Gives me wisdom
Above my teachers
Gives me peace
Above the turmoil
Gives me strength
Above my capacity
With a love
Unconditional

Watch my work become rot
I'll be hopeful still
Watch my reputation smeared
I'll be truthful still
Watch my spirit broken
I'll be thankful still
Watch the doubtful waves rise higher
I'll be trusting still
To love Him
Unconditionally

My God!
My Love!

My God
He loved
And loves me
Unconditionally

He teaches me
To love
And keep loving Him
Unconditionally

I love you, Lord... so much...

Interesting, it's a wonder how much one can say with it.

One of my favourite words of ambiguity

How was the show?
Interesting
Very good

Did the food taste nice?
It was interesting
I wasn't sure if I was tasting soup or stew

How is she like?
Interesting
I like her a lot but she talks too much

How was the sermon?
Interesting
The preacher spoke well and his message spoke millions to me. He used a lot of jokes so I was rebuked as I laughed.

How was the match?
Interesting
The side I wasn't expecting to win won beautifully

How's your new place?
Interesting
I hate the place

Did you have fun on your date?
It was interesting
He was boring and irritating and he almost caused a vehicular accident

What do you think of this write up?

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Interesting... loooooolllllll

Unsettled

This compassion I feel
This empathy
Driving me to do
What's deemed silly
Making me look stupid
And incompetent
Filling me with frustrations
Plaguing me like a disease
Heaping up my fatigue
My mind, it wanders

These hours unending
Those tasks still pending
The clock strikes five
And keeps going
I hiss at the time
But keep going
Unsure if I tread on
For passion or fear
For the sake of my salary
Or the values I hold dear
To impress my boss
Or please my God
To work for the work
Or to keep my job
To do a good job
Because it's not in me to do less
Shoddy work is not part of my make up
I can't cut corners to shape up
My mind, it wanders

Too tired to sleep
I have come to this point again
The nocturnal I am
Unable to be surpressed today
My eyes do not close because I have work to do
They just do not close from sheer exhaustion: 'tis true
Nocturnal me
Just go to bed
Do not rear your unusual head
Succumb to discipline and close your eyes
You know there's more to do after sunrise
You know you must arise before the crack of dawn
You know time will not be kind and deliver you from tomorrow's yawns
Sleep, nocturnal me
Just close your eyes and sleep
The world you live in belongs to the day not the night so sleep
Strange how exhaustion can make me more awake
And pushes me further away from what I need: sleep
My mind, it wanders

Settling not on one
Encouraging more frustration than fun
Resolving not the issues I face
Scattered info in it's wake
My mind still wanders

Iceberg

The sweat, the heat, my forgone treats
It showed nothing but effort

Day after day
Meagre results
Day after day

The ice beneath the waters beginning to form
The tip so small it looked forlorn
I talked about my efforts
But they could only but laugh
Make fun of it all in disbelief
Remind me how obvious my sacrifices brought none
None but no results
That was me

I worked harder each day
Believing the promise
That some day some day
I will be conspicuously rewarded
And I worked on

Sacrificing more
I pushed on

Then suddenly
Out of the blue
I reached my tipping point
The curve changed direction
The results had gained traction
People could see
Sometimes stop and question me
'Is that really you?
Oh my goodness you look so cool!'
It had begun
The hard work, all the efforts
It was visibly paying off

As the praise rose
Of my hard work now unopposed
I went back to work
Not wasting
But sacrificing more instead
Now I had hit recognition
There was a lot more to do
To mainitain
Maintain
My position

Now
Day after day
The sweat, the heat, my forgone treats
Revealed and maintained all, all, all my efforts