A Thousand Random Things

I sprayed breastmilk in my face by mistake a few seconds ago as I wondered if I had run out of it or Naa was just too sleepy to suckle. I guess the latter was true. And I remembered how far I’ve come with this milk journey and how every mother has a unique story around it. From those that stopped producing and totally ran out of milk a week after resuming work to those that couldn’t produce milk for days after birth (like me). Not forgetting the many that got home with engorged breasts and had to make some plan for extracting at work. Not forgetting the baby formula that our babies preferred or not. It’s amazing how far we’ve all come. Me? I’m amazed… 

A thousand random things… 

I was also thinking of what to write today. There’s time to sit and breastfeed this particular morning so I’m taking advantage of it to type and my mind kept jumping to the different things I could write about. One being how the babies (yes, we have two at home) stopped wailing when I switched the channel to the Teletubbies show. It was hilarious, in that brief moment, I realised how I loved Teletubbies myself, even up to University but not once did I think my own baby would find it pleasantly calming and maybe even quietly hilarious like I have. And yet, here we were, watching Lala count 3 big flowers over and over again amidst her own giggles and all 4 of them giving themselves a “biiig huuug”… lol… the journeys we have… 

A thousand random things… 

Another thing I wanted to write about was a willingness I had recently developed to stop explaining. I feel I’m one of those people who value “why” so much that I give reasons even when it isn’t needed. And yet recently, I find myself stopping at what is essential to say in everyday conversations and correspondence. No “because of”, “this will help to”, “since there is”… it’s like a tap is gradually closing on this one. It started with my clients at Enosua’s heArt and made it’s way to conversations with friends and emails to colleagues. It’s like suddenly my brain became more aware of it and started feeling lazy. Those who know me may not see the difference as much as I do… but I’m amazed… I wonder if it’s going to be a 9-day wonder but whatever it is, I’m pleasantly intrigued… the progress we make… 

A thousand random things… 

Now I realise that those thousand and one things have just left the building. I can’t remember all the many things I wanted to type… typical 😂😂😂 I do know I’m starting to do things that “help” with not being as forgetful. Like setting up calendar invites just to do stuff. Or setting alarms on my phone to do same. Let’s not start about how I got here though, I was forgetful before Naa came along and now I’m not sure if I’m better or worse. What I do know though is, surprisingly, I’m getting so many names right at my new job. Like! Like I’m thoroughly impressed! No lie! Maybe I should buy myself a treat… or better yet, just take a long lovely walk in our neighbourhood to celebrate this “achievement”. It’s interesting how in this moment I’ve suddenly thought of rewarding myself with something that isn’t necessarily pampering or indulgent for celebrating an achievement. It’s funny though, I may stop saying, “if I do X, I’ll buy myself Malt” and replace it with “if I do X, I’ll take a lovely walk” 😂😂😂 There could be something here. A whole business plan or lifestyle change, but let me not get ahead of myself. I’ll take that walk soon and then see where the rest takes me. 

A thousand random things… 

Speaking of rest. It was a very adorable thing cuddling with Naa as I ended my work for the day yesterday. It was one of those “work weekends” so finally finishing what I wanted to do, and then closing my laptop, it was so cute seeing Naa reach out to me. Her hands open and raised with her fussy voice and eager eyes looking at me. It was nice to pick her up, rest her in my bosom and experience her falling asleep as I caught up on social media. It’s one of those everyday things and yet one of those everyday blessings too. Knowing you love someone who loves you too. Knowing you’re needed and have the chance to give off your best to the ones who adore you. Knowing you have many chances to cuddle with your baby whilst it lasts… it’s a beautiful thing. Our lives are filled with so much beauty in spite of all our pains and frustrations. And cuddles with Naa is one of my beautiful havens in life. 

A thousand random things… 

8:15am

1st baby diaries || Sunday, 17th July, 2022 || 7 calendar months, 22 days