Tonight

Tonight I’m broken 

I’m on my way and get home after 9pm… close to 10pm…

I’ve taken an Uber from work costing 137 cedis… 

And I’m wondering if returning to work is truly a blessing 

Tonight I’m guessing…

The what ifs never end and I choose to write in verse, in line, in time, in rhyme… or anything in between 

My baby may not suckle tonight and I’m not sure how much I can pump 

Tonight I’m numb

Going through the motion and hoping I don’t cry 

My heart weeps but my face is dead to it 

My mind wanders wondering how women survive 

Tonight I’m vulnerable 

No one knows the answer and I can just take a guess 

Follow that guess and hope it’s the right one

Do my best with no end in sight 

Tonight I need prayer. Do pray with me… 

8:40pm

1st Baby Diaries || Wednesday, 4th May, 2022 || 5 calendar months 9 days